Does He ever wonder?

I am having one of those horrid days today, the whole world seems to have gone mad! I have been looking on the famous facebook, just making sure my daughter is safe on there. I have to say how disappointed I am with it all and that is just part of my disappointment. I looked through a few profiles or pages or whatever they call them and saw nothing but abuse and bad language; it seems to be the way some people communicate these days and I feel bad for saying that I am almost glad that my son and daughter went to Heaven, that they were spared this awful world in which we live. As I said this is simply a small part of my disappointment, I watch the news and its full of war and fighting, people killing each other and causing irrepairable damage to one another and I wonder.... does God look down and wonder what happened to it all? The wonderful world he created is falling to pieces around us and what can we do? I really don't know that answer to it all but I envy those who have gone before us, those who are now dwelling in Gods garden in everlasting peace and love. And I wonder, is there a Hell or is this Hell?
Maybe our babies died to spare them of the pain of Earth, all in all it really isn't such a nice place sometimes. I live a very simple life, sadly due to personal reasons I dont have much family, just my mum really and I have no friends as such and I guess that makes it harder to understand and bear sometimes. I guess I choose to live this way as I can't tolerate attitudes and silly moaning, the loss of a child puts so much into perspective and unfortunately has made me very intollerant. I wonder is this normal? Maybe it's because I haven't dealt with my losses, I have never had counselling or talked things through, some things are just too sad to tell anybody.
They say He never gives us more than we are able to cope with but I wonder... does He ever wonder if He got it wrong???
To anybody who reads this thanks for listening to my ramblings of the day.
I hope you are having a better day
Sarah x