My daughters boyfriend was taken into hospital today to have his appendix out, he is absolutely fine but tonight I had to go to the dreaded hospital where my little boy was taken on that awful morning. I decided to have a walk around and came to the chapel, the place I visited whilst they were trying to resuscitate my baby and remembered how I sat in there and literally begged Him not to take my boy, please let me keep him. And I remembered how I had to hold him in my arms later that night while the life support was removed.
I miss him so much still, I miss his cheeky face and his lighthearted ways, I miss his kindness and loving cuddles. I miss waking up every morning to see him gazing at me, I miss the way his hand fitted into mine, the way his little arms wrapped around me and mine around him and now my arms feel so empty and my heart so heavy.
Where ever you are, I love you Matthew xxx
